I took Dory's advice: I just kept swimming. And now I'm feeling a lot better. I still have my weird rash that in some ways has gotten worse (covering more of my body, itching) but in some ways has gotten better (smaller, lighter bumps).
It kind of makes me sad that I seriously can't handle even our family being sick without me wanting to just throw my hands up to the heavens and say "I quit!" and just drive away and hide for a few days. It makes me wonder what I'll do if/when an actual trial lands at my feet. *sigh*
I've realized, though, that sometimes when you're swimming, you're moving forward, getting places, doing things, and being all Michael Phelps-y (in a non-drug way). Sometimes, you're just treading water, and your muscles are achy and burning, and it's all you can do to keep your head above the water. Other times, you just have to lie back and float for a minute and relax. There are times the water is shallow and you just cautiously wade in, and still other times when you have to jump in the deep end and hope for the best. I think this was one of the tread the water times for me.
So, I kept swimming. And I caught up on laundry (which means I'll have to do more tomorrow, but that's reality), and my kitchen floor got mopped, and my downstairs got dusted and vacuumed. I also went shopping (Pete: "Um, hon, will you return the movies to Hastings? And, take your time. Please." (Meaning: you're being crazy, and you need to get out of the house)). I got some new shorts and a couple of T-shirts, and a new artsy thingy to hang on my kitchen wall. It's weird that shopping made me feel better, because normally I hate to shop. But I think just getting out of the house, being by myself, getting away from the same old, was what did it for me.
But at the end of the day, just keep swimming, just keep swimming...
Meet The Nat Pack!
- Nat
- The Nat Pack: The super fashionable, super mod, super hip family consisting of Nat, Pete, Jakob, Brock, Troy, and Ivy. Like The Rat Pack, only younger, cuter, and not as rich or famous.
7 comments:
I love how you are able to ponder your life through Disney-colored-glasses. I hope that "swimming" gets easier for you as the summer goes on. Hopefully your house has had its one and only run-in with those wretched germs and so you can enjoy the rest of your summer season.
just keep swimming, just keep swimming...ha ha ha, now it'll be stuck in my head!!! I think the Lord likes to give us a bunch of smaller, difficult trials that don't easily go away better more frequently to see how we hold up so that way when he gives us the huge harder ones, we know as well as He does how we will react...just a random thought about trials for ya...I could be completely wrong.
I'm glad I'm not the only one fighting these feelings. Let's do lunch and make each other feel better. I will tell you what a great mom and friend you are and make it all better.
Ah, life is so hard. Why does it have to be so dang hard??? And I love that Dory song. It's in my head now. But it's not a bad song to have in your head.
i love that! millie and i say that to each other sometimes, "just keep swimming, just keep swimming."
and i'm glad you're feeling better!
I'm glad your over the worst of your illness! I'm lovin the swimming analogy:)
Even at my age and place in life, or maybe because of my age and place in life, I still feel like I'm working as hard as I can and am just barely keeping my head above water. You just keep swimming, or you just keep breathing and eventually, you get a moment of reprieve..... it may be a brief moment, but a moment none the less.
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